a reminder that this isn’t just an organ
a reminder that I still can’t play the organ well
a reminder that
while the organ’s broken
in some regards
the pill box filled and emptied weekly
the annual cardiology
in others it works fine
mine works fine sometimes
or somehow
in some ways
it feels weakly when it needs to//it fills too much
it is more than blood mechanics//it’s an engine that can leak and rush
skim read results
thin blood and skin
why I oughta thin aorta
then I order more Abisart 30 ABISART 150MG TAB
Take ONE tablet daily
And she asks (Irbersartan 150mg Tab (AF))
In the discount chemist
(pregnant beneath the white blouse and nametag)
if it’s for me
seems I’m too young
in the way someone has made her swell
revealed the body for more of what it can be
taught an old dog new tricks
you kick-started the hard heart a Turramurra GP compared the beat of
to a London traffic jam
the maze and the mechanics
the cacophony
I’m coughing
The Knowledge that each of you possess of my arterials
a doctor and my love
Poem
a/the/my heart as metaphor and strained organ: aortic stenosis
Dave Drayton