for Nathan Shepherdson
It starts with a sun. A cutlass of light slashes at your head & runs your shadow up your body’s length; a pirate’s black flag. When embracing your lover, your shadows fall in love again & meld into each other like droplets of dark water pooling. Shadows are where the old gods took refuge hiding in plain sight. They are immortal so long as there is a body of faith. You are not. Your shadow sticks to you like a pilot fish or a lamprey. You sustain it & take it for a ride. Your shadow cannot carry you. Gravity does not affect your shadow. It is not a thing as we know it. It does not have molecules, only the shadows of molecules. The fundamental laws that govern the universe, do not govern it. You are the event horizon to your own black hole. When you look up at the night sky the dark bits you see between the pinpricks of stars are not shadows. Shadows are not dark matter. Shadows are not dark energy. Shadows are their own quanta. Your shadow is shackled to you by leg-irons of light. At night your shadow escapes only to be caught by dawn. At dawn your shadow lies around you like the negative of the chalked outline of a freshly murdered body. Often other people’s shadows will fall across yours. There are no sparks as in the flesh. Only a dark meshing of gears. Your shadow can walk up walls & cliff- faces. They are like beetles; electrons are powerless to keep them from climbing. In the late afternoon your shadow mutates. They are dark furred lycanthropes that grow three times your size & stalk behind you. Shadows fear total eclipses of the sun; totality is their version of Armageddon. They are often black-bagged by the moon. The sun’s atmosphere, its pink corona is your shadow’s idea of God. It’s gaseous core is a searing translation of heaven. Clouds trick shadows by making them vanish into the earth’s top hat. Who’s to say where the magician’s cape ends & its shadow begins? Your shadow has limbs, a head, a trunk but no tongue. It is noiseless like Charon’s black sail that propels him across the river Styx. Your shadow likes to pose with you in photos. In old age your shadow will even try to prop you up. In death, your shadow folds around you like a dark wing.